Carpe Diem

Carpe Diem
“Seize the day”
Will I keep wondering for ever? The words that are waiting to come out… the words that have waited for so long! The vent for the tempest in me… it’s now or never.

Emotions- love, sorrow, romance, passion, pain- they have all dawned upon me in the last few days with such a ferocious intensity that my tiny being was left perplexed yet undaunted despite all the atrocities inflicted on the ever unsure self of mine.

It’s my audacious heart, who guides me through this mind boggling network of all human emotions. The sweetness of this feeling, or should I say bitterness or sourness for I am still confused as to what characteristic should I attribute to it; this feeling is so strong, so full of passion that even at the cost of all the pain in the world is worth all that.

The very embrace of such a feeling has made me so strong that all the ambivalence inside me which hitherto was the root for my loneliness has now lost its meaning.

So if it was all so good, so nice why am I still confused?
Well, may be because I am unsure of myself. I am not unsure of what resides in the deepest of me but what comes out of it. Our actions and their reactions are results of so many factors in the universe that there are hardly any times when we respond to an external environment in a way that truly reflects us. And this is the reason that I rarely let myself out of my mind to venture in the form of words that others might understand.

Yet again, it will remain buried inside me; I will continue to be an enigma for my soul can’t communicate alone; it needs another to reciprocate. It is thus the end.

But what if there is something ere the end… what about the possibility of reciprocation… what about Carpe Diem??